Tuesday 14 April 2015

All the Single Ladies...


I am amazed at how society (& everywhere not just in certain countries) highly value being married & having kids & ostracizes singles around the world. 

 

I grew up not wanting to get married.  I cannot imagine being w/ just 1 guy for the rest of my life.  And I hate kids & babies.  And in an 8-year relationship I decided to move in (live-in in Filipino terms) w/ my boyfriend.  It was a disaster.  He left me immediately & I had the burden of the monthly amortization & bills to take care of myself.  I had a realization at this time, that I shouldn’t be doing/planning things that are against God’s laws, like “live-in.”  So I changed.  I decided that apart from my career goals, my “other” goal would be to get married & have my own family.  I thought I was doing things right.

 

That same year (w/c I thought was already the worst year of my life before) I met my future husband.  We went on a blind date (introduced by a common friend).  I was comfortable & there was no dead air in our conversations.  However I was not “normally” attracted to him.  He was not my “usual type.”  He looked clean, like a “good boy.”  He was fair-skinned.  He was Chinese.  He was short.  He looked like the type of guy my parents & lola would like.  He looked like the type of guy my friends need not worry about.  As I left him that day I thought, “no, we would just be friends---I’m not attracted to him at all!”  But I reconsidered right then & there.  I recalled the 2 things I was looking for in a husband:  (1) someone who, when he gets married, will never ever separate from his wife no matter what & (2) someone I can be proud of.  He meets the 2 requirements!  Don’t ask me how I verified he meets the #1 requirement.  Just think of a “good boy” compared to a “bad boy.”  I mean, there are men you know are not the type who will get divorced right?  No matter what?  He is that type.  For #2 I had this requirement because my last boyfriend was hated by my family & friends.  So I guess fighting for the guy was too tiring so I thought about this requirement #2.  So I thought, he met my 2 requirements and for some reason I kept thinking about him that night & the following day---and the rest is history!

 

Now I am “unfortunately married.”  I realized what a big sham it is.  Just watching the latest Fast & Furious film showing Paul Walker supposedly finding “real happiness” w/ his wife & kid/s, what a sham!  Read this all you single ladies---marriage will NOT make you HAPPY!!!  It is WAY WORSE THAN BEING SINGLE!  What is fun about being a wife & having the burden of “carrying” your marriage??!  What is the fun in submitting to your husband???  What is the fun of not having freedom, not being able to do what you want.  There is no real benefit of getting married!!!  Unless if you’re a masochist and would love to live the rest of your life sacrificing, suffering & being miserable!!!  Life is meant to be enjoyed not to suffer & sacrifice constantly.  You should be able to do what you want w/ your life & not be obliged to sacrifice for another human being for the rest of your life.  So please married woman, stop fooling all these lucky single women that you are happy.  Single ladies…don’t be fooled like me! L

 

 

Your Face Sounds Familiar


I have been watching Your Face Sounds Familiar since I first saw it (1st episode, 1st performer – Karla Estrada preparing as Sharon Cuneta).  I never really watch a local show religiously until I saw this one.  I’m waiting for it every weekend whenever I’m home.  But I must admit there are some frustrations…

1.        The judges are puro positive na lang ang alam sabihin --- kahit dun sa binibigyan nila ng lowest score…I thought this show was different before kasi I was pleasantly surprised on the 1st show nung binanggit ni Jed & Sharon na sintonado si Maxene.  Actually ok naman si Sharon minsan she still mentions the area for improvement and I like her candid comments even when not juding---adds spice to the show.  I don’t know why she has many detractors.  It’s refreshing to watch the “New Sharon” now na hindi puro pacute at ang galling humirit!  Pinakawalang kwenta si Gary lahat maganda at magaling sa kanya.  Papalitan daw sya for a while ni Boy Abunda but I don’t expect things to get better knowing Boy na wala ring laman ang sinasabi parati.

2.       Pacorny ng pacorny si Billy Joe Crawford.  He was very good on the 1st show.  Did the ratings frighten him???  Ok this is one of the things na ok lang.  I didn’t want him to excel din dahil sa ginawa nya kay Nikki Gil.

3.       Frustrating yung performances last week.  Halos walang nagperform.  The only positive thing is nanalo na rin ang favorite ko na si Nyoy sa wakas (after the very unfair assignment the week before).  Ipinanalo nya ang worst performance nya---w/c is still better than the others.

4.       Ang pinakafrustrating is ung pagsscore ng judges.  Here is my own scoring (I only included the last 2 weeks dahil eto lang ang napanood ko ng buo sa tv---I realized iba pa rin pag youtube).

 

Week 4 (April 5)[edit]

Order
Contestant
Impersonated artist[16]
Song
Total Points
Rank
1
Melai Cantiveros
Mad Killah of Salbakuta
18
4th
Tutti Caringal
Bendeatha of Salbakuta
20
3rd
2
Edgar Allan Guzman
13
5th
Maxene Magalona
12
6th
3
Jolina Magdangal
Juliet Sunot of Aegis
21
2nd
Nyoy Volante
Rey Abenoja of Aegis
4
8th
4
Karla Estrada
11
7th
Jay R
33
1st

 

***Kung ako I would go for the following:

Tutti

Jay R

Melai

Edgar Allan

Nyoy

Jolina

Karla

Maxene

Hindi magaling si Tutti for the past weeks pero grabe ang performance nya dun sa Salbakuta.  He deserved a higher score.  Si Melai mataas din ang score ko kasi kahit di nya gano nagaya sa looks yung salbakuta eh grabe sa kwela ang performance nila ni Tutti.  Edgar Allan deserved more based on his performance na nagaya si John Travolta---only thing is he looks like Zac Efron.  Si Nyoy deserved more dahil magaling pa rin sya kahit halos extra lang.  Si Jolina hindi marunong kumanta, hindi maabot ung kasimple-simpleng kanta na any ordinary singer eh magagawa, walang nagaya ni kaunti.  Naaalala ko tuloy yung nabasa ko sa FashionPulis lately na parang gusto ng ABS-CBN iahon ang career ni Jolina---kadiri!  Si Karla as usual wala na namang ginawa…lalo na si Maxene.

 

Week 5 (April 11 & 12)[edit]

Order
Contestant
Impersonated artist
Song
Total Points
Rank
1
Edgar Allan Guzman
15
5th
2
Maxene Magalona
3
8th
3
Nyoy Volante
27
1st
4
Karla Estrada
14
6th/7th
5
Jay R
18
3rd
6
Jolina Magdangal
17
4th
7
Tutti Caringal
14
6th/7th
8
Melai Cantiveros
24
2nd

Here’s my ranking:

 

Nyoy

Karla

Jay R

Jolina

Edgar Allan

Tutti

Maxene

Melai

 

Karla deserved more last weekend.  Hindi madali yung pinagawa sa kanya knowing her.  I don’t know why she scored so low.  Si Melai ang halatang-halatang may daya.  Dahil ba ang paborito ng ABS na si Jolina ang ginaya nya?

 

5.        Last frustration ay ang mga nabunot na “Icons” kuno for next weekend’s performances.

 

Week 6 (April 18 & 19)[edit]

Order
Contestant
Impersonated artist
Song
Total Points
Rank
-
Maxene Magalona
-
Tutti Caringal
-
Karla Estrada
-
Edgar Allan Guzman
-
Jolina Magdangal
-
Jay R
-
Melai Cantiveros
-
Nyoy Volante

 

Music Icons pala si Vhong Navarro at si Toni Gonzaga??!  Pweh!!! Maintindihan ko pa si Manny Pacquiao dahil sikat naman ito sa buong mundo lalo na may nalalapit na laban.  Pero gamitin daw ba ang international franchised show na ito to promote their own “talentless” artistis??!  Kahit si apl.de.ap matuturing ba na Icon yon?  Buti kung Black-Eyed Peas o si will.i.am o Fergie pa!  PAK!

 

I’m not looking forward to the next show anymore!!!

Losing My Faith


I have been thinking a lot about my faith.  And I honestly have deliberately not gone to mass for the past 2 Sundays.  I consider myself “religious” before.  And why is that?  Just read my last post.  You see, I prayed for that marriage.  I prayed to meet my future husband.  I prayed for our relationship.  I prayed and asked if I should continue w/ the wedding when I was having second thoughts & I thought I got a “yes” answer.  And a couple of weeks after the wedding I realized what I had gotten myself into.  That is why I’m questioning my faith now. 

What did I do to deserve this?

Why did God allow me to marry this creep?

Why is divorce not allowed by the Church?

Why does God want me to stay in a bad marriage…an unsafe marriage?  Why do I have to risk my life & my baby’s?

Why do I have to stay w/ this guy who tortures my soul & mind every waking moment?

Why does God allow bad things to happen to us?

Why does God allow people to suffer?

Why does God want people to get married & multiply?  Only to suffer?

I have all these questions.  I have prayed on what to do & asked for a sign AGAIN.  The answer I thought I got was to separate from my husband…but why did God want me to marry him in the 1st place?  Am I getting this all wrong?  What is the purpose of going to mass? 

World's Worst Husband


Ok so I was thinking I married the worst husband in the world.  So I thought I would search the net to see if there’s anybody else like me who’s won the lottery (the opposite) on marriage!


Well yeah, it was pretty bad & the woman did not have much options considering the law & culture then.  But I can relate.  I pretty much had an ‘easy’ life.  I didn’t have “major-major” problems growing up.  So I guess this is payback time?!

Why do I think my husband is the worst?  Let me enumerate…oh wait, you have to understand 1st that I just got married & currently pregnant…so here it goes:

1.        He admitted that he goes out w/ gays.

 

He said this has been going on for years.  He said he never did anything w/ them.  He said he did because they give him money (it’s not like he needed the money). 

 

2.       He admitted that he’s doing drugs.

He also admitted he started 2 months before our wedding and that his family knows & that they decided to hide it from me.  I think this is also the reason why he tends to lash out for no valid reason at all.  He is emotionally abusive to me.  And he is starting to physically hurt me.  Threats are also constant.

So I guess I only needed to list 2?  And I already won having the worst husband in the world & the worst luck on marriage!