So Valentine’s Day is coming. I remember when I was still single I tend to “dread” this day (well maybe not as much as the Christmas holidays). Now that I am recently married I really don’t care that this day is coming. And I really envy all the single people out there. I don’t know why people keep on posting “happy photos” on facebook about being married (and having kids as well). Now that I am married I CANNOT SEE what is HAPPY about being married. It’s all suffering, sacrifices, & misery. I wish I had been single forever. I married late but still, my time as a single woman was not enough. Now I never wanna have kids. Why would I when I hear that’s EVEN HARDER THAN MARRIAGE ITSELF.
Just today I can’t see any other post on Facebook than all about my “friends’” kids, like they are really happy & too fond of them. I cannot imagine myself having that feeling & I wish that day NEVER COMES. Now that I am experiencing the hardships of marriage I NEVER want to experience even MORE HARDSHIPS from having kids.
I miss my single life. I miss not being responsible for anything, the household, etc.. Only caring for myself. Not having a “sensitive” husband that I always have to care for while he never cares for me at all. Is it like this as well if you’re a man?
I miss my single life. I can’t imagine why I felt so lonely and desperate then, I had everything. I had a maid (I mean my parents hired her). I live at my parents’ house, I’m not responsible on fixing anything that is broken, I just have to “report” it. I can spend my weekends how I want. I can rest. I am not stressed. I can ACTUALLY REST at home. I don’t use the office as my “resting place” or “peaceful place.” I had an actual home L